Wednesday, December 16, 2009

"apart from Me you can do nothing"

Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself unless it abides in the vine, so neither can you unless you abide in Me. I am the vine, you are the branches; he who abides in Me and I in him, he bears much fruit, for apart from Me you can do nothing.
John 15:4-5

Apart from Christ, we lack. And in 1 Corinthians 13:2, if I "do not have love, I am nothing". I tend to act based on my feelings even if I have been wronged or hurt by someone. But...

Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account wronged suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. (1 Corinthians 13:4-7)

Sunday, December 6, 2009

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I don't really care for animals but I must admit that Kom-Jee's pretty cute.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

thankful

One thing I'm thankful for is the Body of Christ. Thankful for our church in Berkeley, thankful for brethren elsewhere, thankful for those I do not know but prays for me, thankful to the Lord for answering prayers and allowing us to benefit greatly His grace through the brethren... yet I do not think I am thankful enough nor give thanks much...



Just because it was her birthday, I will say, particularly, I'm thankful for my sister, Christine. I am greatly encouraged and loved by her. I enjoy her presence, I am thankful for her reminders of the Gospel and other Truths, her desire to please the Lord, her perseverance in trials, her hugs. Although she is hundreds of miles away from me most of the year, she cares and prays for me. I'm thankful to the Lord for keeping this friendship even though He may take it away anytime. He allows me to still have this wonderful precious friendship.



Friday, November 20, 2009

forgetfulness

Beware that you do not forget the Lord your God by not keeping His commandments and His ordinances and His statues which I am commanding you today; otherwise, when you have eaten and are satisfied, and have built good houses and lived in them, and when your herds and your flocks multiply, and your silver and gold multiply, and all that you have multiplies, then your heart will become proud and you will forget the Lord your God who brought you out from the land of Egypt, and out of the house of slavery.
Deuteronomy 8:11-14

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Oh Lord, My Shepherd Be


Oh Lord my Shepherd be
And besides still waters lead
And among green pastures make me lie
You are with me to the end

In the paths of righteousness
For the glory of Your name
Keep me safe, that I may know always
You are with me to the end

You are with me, you are with me
You are with me to the end
There's no other, friend and Savior
You are with me to the end

For when the shadows fall
And the night is closing in
You are here, no evil will I fear
You are with me to the end


Tuesday, October 27, 2009

the trees clap their hands

Today was quite a windy day. I read this passage today too.

Isaiah 55

"For My thoughts are not your thoughts,
Nor are your ways My ways," declares the LORD.
"For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
So are My ways higher than your ways
And My thoughts than your thoughts.
"For as the rain and the snow come down from heaven,
And do not return there without watering the earth
And making it bear and sprout,
And furnishing seed to the sower and bread to the eater;
So will My word be which goes forth from My mouth;
It will not return to Me empty,
Without accomplishing what I desire,
And without succeeding in the matter for which I sent it.
"For you will go out with joy
And be led forth with peace;
The mountains and the hills will break forth into shouts of joy before you,
And all the trees of the field will clap their hands.


This is not Berkeley. I wish it were though.




Monday, October 12, 2009

Psalm 94:19

When my anxious thoughts multiply within me,
Your consolations delight my soul.

Monday, October 5, 2009

we groan

yes, I know, I should be studying...

Anyway, I just wanted to write about the amazing power of the Holy Spirit that I often doubt. I often doubt in how my sins can be overcome in this sanctifying process. Sin can manifest itself and by the time I realize it, I ask how did I even get here and I don't even know how to change my mind about it. I hear pastors and teachers and friends saying, "Don't listen to yourself, talk to yourself." haha at the beginning I thought that was the same thing, but no... I didn't realize listening to myself is just basing things on my feelings and my feelings are often based off of myself and nothing concrete. Anything based apart from the Word is more than likely to be sin. I need to talk to myself with the Word and remind myself of the promises of the Lord and train the way I think. I thought I've train myself well enough, but it's so easy to slip and get into the desires of the flesh. It's a continual process of prayer and hard work.
"I can do all things through Him who strengthens me" -Philippians 4:13.

When I see this happening through others, how they grow and overcome sins I did not believe they would be able to, it brings me the greatest joy. When I see professions of faith (like through baptism), I am extremely delighted. When I see the work of God in missions and how sovereign He is over nations I never cared about, I see why God still wants the believers to be on the earth. I guess I can have my extremes of wanting or not to live at times. I can think of these things and be excited about life... which is a good thing b/c usually I'm not. This can seem to be a driving force for me to live. And then there are times where I'm disgusted by the futility and boredom of the world and just wish heaven were here. I find it difficult to desire heaven for the fact of having perfect fellowship with the perfect person. Heaven without God is not heaven.

And even when I grow to desire heaven more because of God instead of just fellowship with believers I do not think I'll ever be fully satisfied on earth. When I am happy in the Lord and thankful for the salvation He has provided for me, I will not be satisfied because I am still here on earth and my body will groan to be where He is.
"And not only this, but we ourselves, having the first fruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, waiting eagerly for our adoption as sons, the redemption of our body." Romans 8:23 We groan within ourselves because although we know we have been adopted, we must await the redemption of our bodies, which is when we shall be like Christ. Only then will our adoption be complete." (MacArthur)

Actually I do not know what my point of writing this was, but I've come to the conclusion that even if I think correctly about the Lord and that to live is Christ, I will not be completely satisfied because we were not created for separation and we are just waiting for the day that we will see the Lord face-to-face.

Monday, September 28, 2009

worship

Worship is worth-ship, giving worth to something. (I like this quote also b/c it reminds me that it's ok that I do not sing well =P )

"God is worthy of our highest, purest, and strongest emotions."

"The question is not, "Do you have a voice?" The question is, "Do you have a song?" If you're redeemed by Christ's cross then you do have a song." - Bob Kauflin

http://www.desiringgod.org/ResourceLibrary/ConferenceMessages/ByConference/41/3260_Words_of_Wonder_What_Happens_When_We_Sing/


Saturday, September 19, 2009

my time is not mine, it is the Lord's

"Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and that you are not your own? For you have been bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body."
1 Corinthians 6:19-20

Paul here is speaking of purity, but it applies also to how we are whether it involves in this context sexual sins or not. Our time is not ours, it is His.

webcam fun



Monday, September 7, 2009

Love

Valley of Vision

LORD JESUS,

Give me to love thee, to embrace thee,

though I once took lust and sin in my arms

Thou didst love me before I loved thee,

an enemy, a sinner, a loathsome worm.

Thou didst own me when I disclaimed myself;

Thou dost love me as a son,

and weep over me as over Jerusalem.

Love brought thee from heaven to earth

from earth to the cross,

from the cross to the grave.

Love caused thee to be weary, hungry, tempted,

scorned, scourged, buffeted, spat upon, crucified, and pierced.

Love led thee to bow thy head in death.

My salvation is the point where perfect created love

and the most perfect uncreated love meet together;

For thou dost welcome me, not like Joseph and his brothers,

loving and sorrowing, but loving and rejoicing.

Thy love is not intermittent, cold, changeable;

it does not cease or abate for all my enmity.

Holiness is a spark from thy love

kindled to a flame in my heart by thy Spirit

and so it ever turns to the place from which it comes.

Let me see thy love everywhere, not only in the cross,

but in the fellowship of believers and in the world around me.

When I feel the warmth of the sun may I praise thee

who art the Sun of righteousness with healing power.

When I feel the tender rain

may I think of the gospel showers that water my soul.

When I walk by the river side

may I praise thee for that stream that makes the eternal city glad,

and washes white my robes that I may have the right to the tree of life.

Thy infinite love is a mystery of mysteries,

and my eternal rest lies in the eternal enjoyment of it.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Psalm 23

"The Lord is my shepherd": that's relationship.

"I shall not want": that's supply.

"He makes me to lie down in green pastures": that's rest.

"He leads me beside still waters": that's refreshment.

"He guides me in the paths of righteousness": that's guidance.

"For his name's sake": that's purpose.

"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death": that's testing.

"I will fear no evil": that's protection.

"For you are with me": that's faithfulness.

"Your rod and your staff, they comfort me": that's discipline.

"You prepare a table for me in the presence of my enemies": that's hope.

"You anoint my head with oil": that's consecration.

"My cup overflows": that's abundance.

"Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life": that's blessing.

"And I will dwell in the house of the Lord": that's security.

"Forever": that's eternity.


i forgot what source this is from. but i didn't write it


Yosemite

Monday, August 17, 2009

a glimpse of heaven

Last week through the encouragement of friends, I was blessed. Birthdays are always so great to give. I enjoy seeing the excitement and blessing others... (possibly caking them too =D). But when it comes to my birthday I sometimes don't like it because I feel I get too self-conscious and self-consumed. I would expect people to treat me better or something. But a birthday is just a day I still do not deserve. I used to fear that I'd get bitter that after the day is over people would not treat me the same as that day. I felt people may have treated me better just because they may have felt obligated. But I see that's not necessarily true. I enjoy making people special on their birthdays for who they are not because I'm obligated. In any case, that isn't my point for this entry. I was blessed by people who reminded me to look to the Lord. I think those are the best birthday gifts - to be encouraged to not think about myself but how good God is.


I understood better what storing up treasures in heaven meant

Matthew 6:19-21:
Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys, and where thieves do not break or stea; for where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

I wasn't really appealed to the idea of storing up treasures in heaven. I just knew that Christ alone saves me and I am to be obedient because our goal in life is to glorify Him. Yet, I do not think I thought about glorify God with much joy. However someone shared with me Galatians 4:1-7. God calls us sons and we are able to call Him Abba Father. There is an intimacy with God that we have access to! Our growth/sanctification and obedience does not save us but it does draw us nearer to the Lord and when we are in heaven we will be even closer to Him. People will not have equal intimacy with the Lord, but based by our faithfulness on earth, we will have our rewards in heaven. Before when I thought about rewards I thought of gold and material gain... and maybe God will give us materials, but moreso our greatest treasure is the Lord Himself. So when we sin it isn't just a sin and oops... but we offend God and it hinders our relationship with him. This life is so short compared to eternity. I'm glad that our knowing God does not stop here on earth but in heaven forever!
So sanctification and being obedient has no longer been a duty of a christian life but I hope a great joy and privilege. (Though I am not there yet. Philippians 3)




oh i broke the cake knife
photos courtesy of Eunice

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

"that to you is sin"

Whatever weakens your reason, whatever impairs the tenderness of your conscience, whatever obscures your sense of God, whatever increases the authority of your body over your mind, whatever takes away from your relish for spiritual things, that to you is sin, no matter how innocent it is in itself.

- Susanna Wesley

Monday, July 27, 2009

Thursday, July 16, 2009

lotsa lotsa love

I cannot believe it's been two years since Joni and Friends Family retreat. It's always a highlight of the summer.
What is Joni and Friends?! A wonderful ministry for the disabled and their families. The family retreats held nationwide over summer are great! Arthur says minsitry comes with time. And through this I see it so true. Seeing the kids grow and the parents persevering and rejoicing is amazing... and we get to see it. This thing can be done by many people, but the center of it is Christ. That is the biggest difference and a great difference. The families' hope lies upon Christ. And if it doesn't then we can tell them about Him! =) Excited for next week!

Friday, July 10, 2009

forgiveness (and some webcamming!)

I read this a while back but this article stayed stuck in my head:

In Pleasing People Priolo portrays the heart of forgiveness as being a promise. Here is what he says: "Forgiveness is fundamentally a promise. As God promises to not hold our sins against us, so we also must promise not to hold the sins of those we've forgiven against them." This is, of course, the foundation of the forgiveness God promises to us: that He will never hold our sins against us. On the day of judgment we know that He will not suddenly charge us with sins that have been forgiven us through the blood of Jesus. We have faith in God and trust in this promise. Without this promise our faith is hopeless. Praise God that he offers us this manner of forgiveness!

The promise of forgiveness, says Priolo, can be broken into three parts. First, you promise not to bring up the offense to the forgiven person so as to use it against him. Second, you promise not to discuss with others the sin you have forgiven. Third, you promise not to dwell on the forgiven offense but to remind yourself that you have forgiven the offender in the same way that God has forgiven you for a multitude of far greater sins. Thus when you ask forgiveness you secure these promises for yourself.


The point about not bringing up a sin I have forgiven against them made me realize that I cannot do that explicitly or in my head either. I think if not bitterness for sure would be built up. It hurts the relationship. well... just read the article! =)


Totally not related but yay for webcams!
Christine all the way from cambridge =O


doesn't she look like she's a little wacko? =P

saw junia try this. didn't really work b/c of the gap.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Friday, June 26, 2009

long beach aquarium

finding the real Nemo

this is how i feel summer is

sea otter spinning... watch at the end how he scrubs his head


"Worthy are You, our Lord and our God, to receive glory and honor and power; for You created all things, and because of Your will they existed, and were created."
Revelations 4:11

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

seven years

On June 23, 2002 I was baptised... praise the Lord for His grace and that He has sustained me. Although that probably wasn't the exact date I was saved, praise the Lord with me! =D
Praise Him that He has changed a wretched sinner and regenerated my heart. I do not deserve His love. Praise Him that He is sanctifying me to be more holy for He is holy.

Friday, June 19, 2009

Thursday, June 11, 2009

while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.


a bookmark from our wonderful class brothers

Thursday, June 4, 2009

"i wish"

Just something I've been learning... 

"I wish it were 5 hours from now" I would say when I have a piano test in the next couple hours 
"I wish it were last week" I would say when I was at Disneyland or a retreat the week before
"I wish it were winter break" I would say when fall semester begins
"I cannot wait for tomorrow to be over!" I would say when I have a final the next morning

discontentment written all over. I was told that I say "I wish" and "I cannot wait" frequently, so I've been trying to say "I am looking forward to" and if I cannot replace "I wish" with that then something's pretty wrong with my thinking. Such as if I say "I wish it were the past"... I'm living too much in the past. If I say"I wish this weren't happening to me" I'm probably not trusting in the Lord. 
But things like "I wish it were end of the semester" can be replaced with "I am looking forward to semester being over" and then it causes me to ask why instead of just simply being grumpy and wishing for things. Although "I am looking forward to" has similar meaning to "I wish" I think the attitude is different. Maybe it's less of a complaint but more of just eagerness.

If you have other thoughts or something added to this that is Biblical let me know! B/c I'm just learning and if I'm not learning directly from the Bible there can be great error. Btw, if I tell you about this, I just want to maybe help you because I'm more aware of it when people say "I wish" and "I cannot wait" and if it just seems not applicable... then ignore me. haha.

(also you can keep me accountable to this. when i'm convicted of little habits like this i can easily go back b/c my conviction was good in that it's a good habit to have but bad in that my heart wasn't fully doing it for the right reason)



anyway I'm starting to like yogurt... yogurtland yogurt that is (but not a fanatic about it)

Saturday, May 30, 2009

sail boats






view near ghiradelli 05.22.09

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

one Body

in a few minutes ill be heading out to go home for maybe 2-3 months. such a strange feeling... seeing taiwan team leaving and soon others will be leaving as well for various stuff. but praise the Lord for one Body. i met up with a friend this week who goes to a different church and we were able to share our struggles and praises. different churches does not mean anything as long as we are loved by and loving the same God. 

There is one body and one Spirit, just as you were called in one hope of your calling; one Lord, one faith, one baptism, one God and Father of all who is over all and through all and in all.
- Ephesians 4:4-6


Sunday, May 24, 2009

the love of Christ controls us

I often seek to limit "loving" people according to how much I am loved by them. Why? Would I feel pathetic for loving someone more than they love me?
I don't know how God does it...

Why do I not love according to how much I am loved by God period...

For the love of Christ controls us, having concluded this, that one died for all, therefore all died
-2 Cointhians 5:14

let's play and eat!




Friday, May 15, 2009

ugly doll

have you seen an ugly doll?
here are store bought ones


here are some home made ones...





and here is mine. I call it the squid.
yes i know he's ugly... like really ugly. someone said he looks like stitch...


Saturday, May 9, 2009

blessings



class plus cfg servants minus a few. 
stay close to the True Vine (Christ) and we will be close to one another. take care of the depth and He'll take care of the breadth... (even/especially when things don't go our way/don't make sense)

Friday, May 1, 2009

Thursday, April 23, 2009

sun


picture taken from the golden gate bridge from last year's SF biking trip. =]

Sunday, April 19, 2009

"I want to glorify God with my life"

Consider this statement: I want to glorify God with my life.

It is Biblical in that our lives are to glorify God. However, when I say this statement am I focusing on the I and the my? Am I more concerned on what I'm doing than on the One receiving the glory? When we give a gift to someone we enjoy being with, our minds and hearts are on the person... not on ourselves. But I think when I think about my life and my plans... even though I know God is to be glorified... my focus is way to often how I make my steps rather than trusting in the Lord and fixing my eyes upon Him... (and His glory... not my own whether it's religious or not...) being more concerned about Him and how my life is is not my own. Does that make sense?

I can do the same stuff whether the statement is on myself or the Lord... but it's the heart that counts. Plus we know that life is much easier in a sense when we fully and joyfully live for Him without being too concerned about if things go our way. We're just too stubborn to do it. 

(I'm inarticulate in expressing my thoughts. This may have been incomprehensive. sorry.)

yet for us there is but one God, the Father, from whom are all things and we exist for Him; and one Lord, Jesus Christ, by whom are all things, and we exist through Him.
1 Corinthians 8:6

Thursday, April 16, 2009

*shake shake shake*

one day i was webcamming with Eunice and i decided to show her this little toy that belongs to my roommate. it spins in a circle as if it were doing the holla hoop. =P

Thursday, April 9, 2009

washing

wash one another's feet realization:
Although I emphasized that washing the feet (serving/loving/being humbled towards) of younger Christians or easy to be prideful over ones can be difficult sometimes, doing the same to those who are more mature, godly, older... those whom we respect is difficult too. We feel unworthy to do such a thing becuase they serve us in different ways and we know they love us, but we are just afraid to disappoint them. Christ is our example as He served His Father. His mind was always on the Father. He loved and loves Him. We are not like Christ in that we cannot do this by our strength and by merely doing it just because it is right but by His strength and by our desire to glorify God. Pray that we (I) would serve our Lord by washing the feet of those who are older, younger, same age, immature, more mature, we are prideful over, who we are ashamed to disappoint etc. 


"The Word of Contentment" chapter 7 of The Seven Sayings of the Saviour on the Cross by Arthur Pink

"Father, into thy hands I commend my spirit"

And how blessed it is that his Father is our Father! Ours because his. How wonderful this is! How unspeakably precious that I can look up to the great and living God and say, "Father," my Father! What comfort is contained in this title! What assurance is conveyed! God is my Father, then he loves me, loves me as he loves Christ himself! (John 17:23). God is my Father and loves me, then he careth for me. God is my Father and careth for me, then he will "supply all my need" (Phil. 4:19). God is my Father, then he will see to it that no harm shall betide me, yea, that all things shall be made to work together for my good. O that his children entered more deeply and practically into the blessedness of this relationship, then would they joyfully exclaim with the apostle, "Behold, what manner of love the Father hath bestowed upon us, that we should be called the children of God" (1 John 3:1)! 

picture of the week:

Friday, April 3, 2009

wash one another's feet


Respecting and doing things for older and people we respect is easy. We were trained since we were born to obey our parents and our teachers. And then we teach those who are younger than us and discipline them. We do have to be patient and sacrifice for them. I'm not a parent yet so I don't know exactly what it is to sacrifice for a kid. But it doesn't matter whether I'm a parent now or not, God commands us to serve one another whether they are more mature or less or our mentor or mentee etc. Christ who is the king washed the disciple's feet with his own towel on himself. We already know this but it's difficult to be humble and serve those younger than us and put them above us. Think of them more highly, more important, to put them first. Christ could have just commanded us, but He literally washed the feet Himself. He walked on this earth to serve. 

John 13
5Then He poured water into the basin, and began to wash the disciples' feet and to wipe them with the towel with which He was girded. ... 14"If I then, the Lord and the Teacher, washed your feet, you also ought to wash one another's feet. 15"For I gave you an example that you also should do as I did to you.


pictures of the week

ahh kids are so cute!




Thursday, March 26, 2009

p.o.w. s p r i n g




What's a better way to begin spring than with a birthday picnic and hike (and food =P)?

happy birthday eunice!
"But one who looks intently at the perfect law, the law of liberty, and abides by it, not having become a forgetful hearer but an effectual doer, this man will be blessed in what he does." 
-James 1:25




Friday, March 20, 2009

picture of the week (p.o.w.) - nice day. nice breakfast. nice people.

in front of doe library.  notice the random yoga mat on the left.

Monday, March 16, 2009

why is it when i have to study i procrastinate even more? 

anyways going home in less than a week!

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Jesus My Glory

O Lord God,

Thou hast commanded me to believe in Jesus;

    and I would flee to no other refuge,

            wash in no other fountain,

            build on no other foundation,

            receive from no other fullness,

            rest in no other relief.

His water and blood were not severed in their flow at the cross,

   may they never be separated in my creed and experiences;

May I be equally convinced of the guilt and pollution of sin,

   feel my need of a prince and saviour,

   implore of him repentance as well as forgiveness,

   love holiness, and be pure in heart,

   have the mind of Jesus, and tread in his steps.

Let me not be at my own disposal,

   but rejoice that I am under the care of one

   who is too wise to err,

     too kind to injure,

     too tender to crush.

May I scandalize none by my temper and conduct, but

   recommend and endear Christ to all around,

   bestow good on every one as circumstances permit,

   and decline no opportunity of usefulness.

Grant that I may value my substance,

   not as the medium of pride and luxury,

   but as the means of my support and stewardship.

Help me to guide my affections with discretion,

     to owe no man anything,

     to be able to give to him that needeth,

     to feel it my duty and pleasure to be merciful and forgiving,

     to show to the world the likeness of Jesus.

Valley of Vision


picture of the week:

cuties =]