Saturday, October 8, 2016

whom to fear

http://theliloone.blogspot.com/2010/04/who-do-i-fear.html

I vaguely remember writing the post in the above link a few years ago. I was thinking about the idea of "whom to fear" as there are many opinions and decisions and convictions to be made and have these days. There are so differences even amongst professing Christians. I wonder how can people who say they believe in the same thing have differing opinions on big and small issues.

Even if we choose to do what is "right", is there something lacking? I know I forget so frequently to ask why I think or decide or do things the way I do. Why do I sin when I do? We have to see who is it I fear. Is it people or God? Whose opinions matter to me? People or God's? Some may do what is "right" but not really fear God, but just doing things to be "right". When we fear God we will do things in a loving way. And some may do things thinking they're being fair or sensitive to people, but do they care about what God says is True? It may lead to misunderstanding and/or persecution.

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.

And now, Israel, what does the LORD your God require of you, but to fear the LORD your God, to walk in all his ways, to love him, to serve the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul - Deuteronomy 10:12

Monday, August 29, 2016

repost: i asked the Lord

Repost of an old hymn that reflects when God may allow internal struggle to draw us nearer to Him because He loves us

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0cnEDUMfPXs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4YllQxiLXiE


Sunday, August 14, 2016

awe and wonder

Most of the things I post are meant to be reminders to myself of things that have been of encouragement. And they have been helpful when I am forgetful of truth.

Here's one article from DesiringGod that reminded me not to just look at myself-worth but more than that and look to behold God.


"Women, Trade Self-Worth for Awe and Wonder" by Jen Wilkin
http://www.desiringgod.org/articles/women-trade-self-worth-for-awe-and-wonder

If you’ve spent much time in Christian women’s circles, you may have noticed that we have devoted many gatherings to exploring our identity.
Retreats, conferences, and topical Bible studies rush to assure us that we are redeemed and treasured, that our lives have purpose, that our actions carry eternal significance. If we just understood who we are — the message goes — we would turn from our sin patterns and our spiritual low self-esteem and experience the abundant life of which Jesus spoke.
Recently I attended a women’s conference at which this message predictably took center stage. One after another, all three keynote speakers took us toPsalm 139:14, urging us to see ourselves the way God sees us, as fearfully and wonderfully made. It could have been just about any women’s event, with just about any typical speaker. Christian women ask Psalm 139:14 to soothe us when our body image falters, or when we just don’t feel that smart, valuable, or capable. We ask it to bolster us when our limits weigh us down. But based on how frequently I hear it offered, I suspect the message may not be “sticking to our ribs” very well.
Why is that?
I believe it is because we have misdiagnosed our primary problem. As long as we keep the emphasis on us instead of on a higher vision, we will take small comfort from discussions of identity — and we will see little lasting change. Our primary problem as Christian women is not that we lack self-worth, not that we lack a sense of significance or purpose. It’s that we lack awe.

Awe and Wonder

On a recent visit to San Francisco, my husband and I had the chance to hike Muir Woods. Walking its paths, we halted, slack-jawed, to gaze up at 250-foot redwoods that had stood since the signing of the Magna Carta. Towering and ancient, they reminded us of our smallness.
Muir Woods was a place to be awestruck. But not necessarily for everyone. I can still see the eight-year-old playing a video game while his parents took in the view. I’m not judging mom and dad — I’ve been on vacation with young children myself — but the irony of the image was compelling.
“Our primary problem as Christian women is not that we lack self-worth. It’s that we lack awe.”
Research shows that when humans experience awe — wonderment at redwoods or rainbows, Rembrandt or Rachmaninoff — we become less individualistic, less self-focused, less materialistic, more connected to those around us. In marveling at something greater than ourselves, we become more able to reach out to others.
At first, this seems counterintuitive, but on closer examination, it begins to sound a lot like the greatest commandments: Love God with heart, soul, mind, and strength (marvel at Someone greater than yourself), and love your neighbor (reach out to others).
Awe helps us worry less about self-worth by turning our eyes first toward God, then toward others. It also helps establish our self-worth in the best possible way: we understand both our insignificance within creation and our significance to our Creator. But just like a child on an iPad at the foot of an 800-year-old redwood, we can miss majesty when it is right in front of us.

True Self-Awareness

We have done it habitually with Psalm 139:14. It’s easy to hear it as a “pink verse” when a woman is reading it aloud to a room full of women. It is harder to hear it that way when we consider who wrote it. Imagine King David writing it to give himself a pep talk about his appearance or his self-worth. No,Psalm 139:14 is not written to help us feel significant. We have only to zoom out and consider the entire psalm to see this. Without question, the subject of Psalm 139 is not us. Rather than a reflection on me, fearfully and wonderfully made, it is an extended and exquisite celebration of God, fearful and wonderful.
Awe yields self-forgetfulness. When we emphasize self-awareness to the omission of self-forgetfulness, we have missed the mark. You can tell me that I am a royal daughter of the King. You can assure me that I am God’s poem or his masterpiece. You can tell me that I stir the heart of God, that I am sung over and delighted in, that I am beautiful in his eyes, that I am set apart for a sacred purpose. You can tell me these things, and you should. But I beg you:Don’t tell me who I am until you have caused me to gaze in awe at “I Am.” Though all of these statements are precious truths, their preciousness cannot be properly perceived until framed in the brilliance of his utter holiness. There can be no true self-awareness apart from right, reverent awe of God.

Lift Up Our Eyes

So I implore you, women teachers, lift my eyes from myself to him. Teach me the fear of the Lord (Proverbs 31:30). Finding our identity in the wrong places is a symptom of succumbing to the fear of man. We measure ourselves by a human standard instead of a divine one. But the solution to the fear of man is not repeated assurances that we are loved and accepted by God. It is fear of God.
  • When I ask, “Does he delight in me?” Teach me, “He delights in those who fear him.” (Psalm 147:11)
  • When I ask, “Does he call me friend?” Teach me, “His friendship is for those who fear him.” (Psalm 25:14)
  • When I ask, “Is he for my good?” Teach me, “His goodness is stored up for those who fear him.” (Psalm 31:19)
  • When I ask, “Will he grant me wisdom?” Teach me, “It begins with the fear of the Lord.” (Psalm 111:10)
  • When I ask, “Can I turn from my sin?” Teach me, “Yes, by the fear of the Lord.” (Proverbs 16:6)
  • When I ask, “Does he see the way I take?” Teach me, “The eye of the Lord is on those who fear him.” (Psalm 33:18)
  • When I ask, “Does he love me?” Teach me, “His steadfast love is for those who fear him.” (Psalm 103:1117)
The fear of the Lord is linked to contentment (Proverbs 15:1619:23), to confidence (Proverbs 14:26), to blessing (Proverbs 28:14), to spiritual safety (Proverbs 29:25), and to praise and adoration (Psalm 22:23). It is no wonder, then, that the much-referenced Proverbs 31 woman is called praiseworthy because she fears the Lord.

Teach Us Awe

As Ed Welch has rightly diagnosed, we must fight fear with fear. We cease offering reverence and awe to a human standard by instead offering it to its true object: God himself. This is worship. And when we “worship the Lord in the splendor of holiness” (Psalm 96:9) an interesting thing happens: we do rediscover our true identity — as sinners redeemed by grace, in a manner that defies human understanding.
Don’t tell me who I am until you have caused me to gaze in awe at “I Am.”
In that moment, the one in which we tremble and stammer, “Depart from me, for I am a sinful woman,” our hearts are ready to drink in the good news that we are daughters of the King. The priceless pearl of his love for us can at last be properly valued. The miracle of our acceptance through Christ can at last be properly savored.
It’s time for women teachers and authors to abandon the thin gruel of self-reflection for a message that sticks to our ribs. Women desperately need to be discipled into the joyful practice of self-forgetful worship. Help us lift our eyes to towering majesty. Help us learn awe. Teach us the fear of the Lord.

Saturday, August 13, 2016

Surround yourself with people who feed your soul, not your ego. - B. J. Thompson

Monday, May 30, 2016

Growing in Humility

by George Thomas on Ligonier

http://www.ligonier.org/learn/articles/growing-humility/

After reading this, it was a humble reminder of the life of Jesus' life. It was not at all like the way most of us Americans live. "Yolo"? Living for the next best thing? Grass is greener on the other side? Looking for the next promotion? Being well-liked? Next vacation and food spot? But He lived a humble life to the point of death and taking in the wrath of God. And what is our life? He lived in humility so that we don't have to suffer, but not so we could just have fun in life. I do think he wants us to have joy in life, but not life apart from Him. We can enjoy the vacation, promotion, food, relationship because of His humble life. But the goal in life is not these things in of themselves.

Bring My sons from afar
And My daughters from the ends of the earth,
Everyone who is called by My name,
And whom I have created for My glory,
Whom I have formed, even whom I have made.”
Isaiah 43:6-7 
The goal is to love Him and glorify Him. John 17:3 I love because it reminds us that life eternal is about knowing Jesus. God says we will suffer and undergo persecution if we are followers of Him. So why do we or I live such as kings and queens as if God owes us blessings? He already gave so much, we just need to be thankful to have life, to be able to know Him, and He will give us blessings anyhow not out of obligation.

Sunday, May 1, 2016

ghost ship - adoption





We are the cold and starving
We are the scared and trembling
We are the desperatly lost
We are the lone and hopeless
We are the outcast orphans
We are the ones no one wants
But a Father is coming for us

You adopted us in
And you made us your own
You adopted us in
And you gave us a home

We were the long discarded
We were the weak and useless
We needed rescue and help
We were the long forgotten
We were the disregarded
We couldn't care for ourselves
But a Father was coming for us

You adopted us in
And you made us your own
You adopted us in
And you gave us a home, yeah

When I met you, I didn't know you had money
I didn't know you were a King
I was too young
To know you were a rich man
I just knew you loved me
Oh, I knew you loved me
I just know you love me

You adopted us in
And you made us your own, yeah
You adopted us in
And you gave us a home, oh yeah

You adopted us in
And you made us your own
You adopted us in
And you gave us a home

Saturday, April 2, 2016

"Dear Sir, I am"

Taken from Tabletalk Magazine April 2016

The story is told that The Times of London at one point early in the 1900s posed this question to several prominent authors: "What's wrong with the world today?" The well-known author G.K. Chesterton is said to have responded with a one-sentence essay:

Dear Sir,
I am. 
Yours, G. K. Chesterton

His witty reply is unnerving and unexpected. But it is also very biblical.

Take, for example, Psalm 10:7, which reads, "His mouth is filled with cursing and deceit and oppression; under his tongue are mischief and iniquity." The subject of this verse is a wicked man. This man hates God, blasphemes Him even. He is boastful, impious, cruel to the poor, greedy, arrogant, deceitful, coarse, and murderous. The psalmist calls God to see and act, to judge this evil person and to do it now.

We call this kind of psalm an imprecatory psalm - a psalm that pleads with God to unleash His vengeance on the ungodly. I wonder if that theme doesn't resonate with you as you consider the enemies of the gospel of Jesus. Even if we take Paul's reminder that we don't wrestle against flesh and blood but against the demonic (Eph 6:12) and against sin (Col. 3:5; Rom 8:13), then there is plenty to target with imprecatory psalms.

But Paul takes us in an entirely direction when he quotes Psalm 10:7 in Romans 3:14. That unexpected Pauline turn is exactly what Chesterton was espousing in his two-word essay and is a key to understanding Christian salvation. In the first two chapters of Romans, Paul makes a comprehensive case for the ubiquity of sin. He starts with those who are not the people of God, calling out their disobedience. But then he turns his sights on unbelieving Jews, those who think they have secured their right standing with God through religious works or ethnic lineage, and lumps them into the same depraved mass of humanity as the non-Jew. Then Paul searches for a verse from the Old Testament to describe the state of everyone, everyone whose trust is not in Christ alone for salvation, and he considers Psalm 10:7. Paul sees in Psalm 10:7 a mirror to his own dark heart without the grace of Jesus.

Is that how you see yourself? When you read an imprecatory psalm, do you first leave it against someone else or against your own unbelief and sin? Do you take the worst that the Bible has to say about the enemies of God and confess that that is exactly who you would be without the electing grace of God? Do you see Jesus there on the cross as He takes the very imprecations of God on your behalf? Christian salvation frees us to be doubly honest. We are brutally honest about our sin and need apart from Jesus. But we're also brutally honest about free and gracious salvation in Christ alone.

(Rev. Joe Holland)

Thursday, March 24, 2016

betrayed by one of his own

BETRAYED BY ONE OF HIS OWN
David Mathis

Wednesday went quietly. Too quietly.
With the previous three days awash in drama—Sunday’s triumphal entry, Monday’s temple cleansing, and Tuesday’s temple controversies—now Wednesday, April 1, A.D. 33, comes like the calm before the storm.
But out of sight, lurking in the shadows, evil is afoot. The church has long called it “Spy Wednesday,” as the dark conspiracy against Jesus races forward, not just from enemies outside, but now with a traitor from within. It is this day when the key pieces come together in the plot for the greatest sin in all of history: the murder of the Son of God.

The Plot Thickens
Jesus wakes again just outside Jerusalem, in Bethany, where he has been staying at the home of Mary, Martha, and Lazarus. His teaching again attracts a crowd in the temple. But now the Jewish leaders, silenced by Jesus the day before, will leave him be. Today they will avoid public confrontation and instead connive in private.
Caiaphas, the high priest, gathers to his private residence the chief priests and Pharisees—two competing groups, typically at odds, now bedfellows in their ache to be rid of the Galilean. They scheme to kill him, but don’t have all the pieces in place yet. They fear the approving masses, and don’t want to stir up the assembled hordes during Passover. The initial plan is to wait till after the feast, unless some unforeseen opportunity emerges.
Enter the traitor.

The Miser and His Money
The Gospel accounts point to the same precipitating event: the anointing at Bethany.
Jesus was approached by a woman—we learn from John12:3 that it was Mary, the sister of Martha. She took “very expensive ointment” and anointed Jesus. An objection comes from the disciples—John 12:4 says it was Judas—“Why was this ointment not sold for three hundred denarii and given to the poor?” This was, after all, “a very large sum,” more than a year’s wages for a soldier or common laborer. It would have been enough money to finance a family for more than a year, and could have gone a long way for charity.
But Jesus doesn’t share Judas’s miserliness. Here he finds extravagance in its rightful place. The kingdom he brings resists mere utilitarian economics. He sees in Mary’s “waste” a worshiping impulse that goes beyond the rational, calculated, efficient use of time and money. For Mary, Jesus is worth every shekel and more. The Anointed himself says what she has done is “a beautiful thing” (Matt. 26:10).
Judas, on the other hand, is not so convinced. And contrary to appearances, the miser’s protest betrays a heart of greed. Judas’s concern comes “not because he cared about the poor, but because he was a thief, and having charge of the moneybag he used to help himself to what was put into it” (John 12:6). The traitor had long been on a trajectory of sin and hard-heartedness, but the last straw is this extravagant anointing.
Satan finds a foothold in this heart in love with money, and what wickedness follows. Incensed about this “waste” of a year’s wages, he goes to the chief priests and becomes just the window of opportunity the conspirators are looking for. The spy will lead them to Jesus at the opportune time when the crowds have dispersed. And the greedy miser will do it for only thirty pieces of silver, which Exodus21:32 establishes as the price of the life of a slave.

Why the Insult of Betrayal?
Why would God have it go down like this? If Jesus truly is being “delivered up according to the definite plan and foreknowledge of God” (Acts 2:23), and his enemies are doing just as God’s hand and plan “had predestined to take place” (Acts 4:28), why design it like this, with one of his own disciples betraying him? Why add the insult of betrayal to the injury of the cross?
We find a clue when Jesus quotes Psalm 41:9 in forecasting Judas’s defection: “He who ate my bread has lifted his heel against me” (John 13:18). King David knew the pain not just of being conspired against by his enemies, but betrayed by his friend. So now the Son of David walks the same path in his agony. Here Judas turns on him. Soon Peter will deny him, and then the remaining ten will scatter.
From the beginning of his public ministry, the disciples have been at his side. They have learned from him, traveled with him, ministered with him, been his earthly companions, and comforted him as he walked this otherwise lonely road to Jerusalem.
But now, as Jesus’s hour comes, this burden he must bear alone. The definitive work will be no team effort. The Anointed must go forward unaccompanied, as even his friends betray him, deny him, and disperse. As Donald Macleod observes, “Had the redemption of the world depended on the diligence of the disciples (or even their staying awake) it would never have been accomplished.” 
As he lifts “loud cries and tears” (Heb. 5:7) in the garden, the heartbreak of David is added to his near emotional breakdown: “Even my close friend in whom I trusted, who ate my bread, has lifted his heel against me” (Ps. 41:9). He is forsaken by his closest earthly associates, one of them even becoming a spy against him. But even this is not the bottom of his anguish. The depth comes in the cry of dereliction, “My God! My God! Why have you forsaken me?” (Matt. 27:46).

But more remarkable than this depth of forsakenness is the height of love he will show. Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends, even when they have forsaken him.

Reading meditation from Your Sorrow Will Turn to Joy